The "Thought" thread

*I'm too emotional. I mean, not for myself... hmm..... (ponders)*

*I wonder what that meant... oh no, not another...*sighs**

*hm... another what? Sam is very emotional and confusing... me like! yawnishsimle... I'm tired....*

*chuckes harshly*
*Aren't we all? Oh thank god for screamo...sometimes it's good to drown out my thoughts, I really should get that Linkin Park CD. Also, evanescence and Bullet for my valentine. ALl of those must make the christmas list...
I can't beleive myself. There are people out there suffering for their belieefs or for no reason at all, and your worried abotu a few f****** CDs? Amazing...And people think I'm so great. They're idiots. But aren't we all, at one point or another? No. Not everyone.*

~Gothic*Aravelle~ wrote:

*Ok, for your information, I wasn't high on anything! Andrew partially predicted correct though, I am going through relationship problems, but that is not the point! I was just freakishly happy for reason I cannot divulge o.O Case is partially right too, some of it is hormonal >.< Dangnab it, you guys have it so easy...oh great. I wish I had known that earlier..mom, I can't wait until christmas I want to know what it is!! I should have been working on Julius Caesar not playing on here and edocsil. But it's so fun and it makes me happy. Especially my sweet shade...and not much makes me happy these days anyway...*

*Sam i know how you feel me and my girlfreind just broke up. Life is SO hard! OOhh chirstmas, I can't wait. I hopr i get my new ipod. and the legend of zelda twilght princess. ....I wonder what we are having for thanksgiving dinner. I can't wait to see my aunt becky. She is So awsome. Oh, and the SEC champiship is coming up. I hope we do good.*

*That sucks. Ugh, why aren't they here yet? I'm already almost an hour late and I need those service hours! Gah..I bet everyone is going to find the new avi troubling. I don't like worrying people, but oh well. Nothing they can do for me anyway...d*** does it always have to be about you?! You're so self centered...perhaps that's how emos and goths really are. Perhaps that is their fault; they focus on themselves. Or perhaps they are just suffering on the inside, and show it unlike others. Either way, I fit the bill...*

*Are you really dressing emo, Sam?*

*Yeah, I never thought about that**

*about what*

Case wrote:

*Are you really dressing emo, Sam?*

*that says it*

*about sam dressing emo. God, i have to work today. I don't want to work. But hey i get money and i can buy what i don't get for chirstmas with it and save some of it. GOD, i can't wait for christmas.*

*i can't either, I also sometimes have a hard time typing thoughts*

*I had dream the other night and it was christmas morning and I was going to get the rest of my family up and we were going down stairs to look at our gifts and i woke at 2 in the morning thinking it was christmas morning.*

Case wrote:

~Gothic*Aravelle~ wrote:

*Ok, for your information, I wasn't high on anything! Andrew partially predicted correct though, I am going through relationship problems, but that is not the point! I was just freakishly happy for reason I cannot divulge o.O Case is partially right too, some of it is hormonal >.< Dangnab it, you guys have it so easy...oh great. I wish I had known that earlier..mom, I can't wait until christmas I want to know what it is!! I should have been working on Julius Caesar not playing on here and edocsil. But it's so fun and it makes me happy. Especially my sweet shade...and not much makes me happy these days anyway...*

*Sam i know how you feel me and my girlfreind just broke up. Life is SO hard! OOhh chirstmas, I can't wait. I hopr i get my new ipod. and the legend of zelda twilght princess. ....I wonder what we are having for thanksgiving dinner. I can't wait to see my aunt becky. She is So awsome. Oh, and the SEC champiship is coming up. I hope we do good.*

*hmm well I guess this is why I don't date. There's no real point of having a gf until your at least 16 anyways. All it will lead to is heartbreak, depression, and hours spent that you'll never get back. Sure, there's probably some fun in it, but it's just instant gratification that won't last. There are wiser uses of my time, and life on Earth is so short...*

Andrew Blue wrote:

Case wrote:

~Gothic*Aravelle~ wrote:

*Ok, for your information, I wasn't high on anything! Andrew partially predicted correct though, I am going through relationship problems, but that is not the point! I was just freakishly happy for reason I cannot divulge o.O Case is partially right too, some of it is hormonal >.< Dangnab it, you guys have it so easy...oh great. I wish I had known that earlier..mom, I can't wait until christmas I want to know what it is!! I should have been working on Julius Caesar not playing on here and edocsil. But it's so fun and it makes me happy. Especially my sweet shade...and not much makes me happy these days anyway...*

*Sam i know how you feel me and my girlfreind just broke up. Life is SO hard! OOhh chirstmas, I can't wait. I hopr i get my new ipod. and the legend of zelda twilght princess. ....I wonder what we are having for thanksgiving dinner. I can't wait to see my aunt becky. She is So awsome. Oh, and the SEC champiship is coming up. I hope we do good.*

*hmm well I guess this is why I don't date. There's no real point of having a gf until your at least 16 anyways. All it will lead to is heartbreak, depression, and hours spent that you'll never get back. Sure, there's probably some fun in it, but it's just instant gratification that won't last. There are wiser uses of my time, and life on Earth is so short...*

*How old are you anyway, Andrew? And I was over it two days after cause I know that it is just a REAL waste of time to cry, mope around, and feel depressed about it. So, I do my best to get over the break up and move on in my life.

Case wrote:

Andrew Blue wrote:

Case wrote:

~Gothic*Aravelle~ wrote:

*Ok, for your information, I wasn't high on anything! Andrew partially predicted correct though, I am going through relationship problems, but that is not the point! I was just freakishly happy for reason I cannot divulge o.O Case is partially right too, some of it is hormonal >.< Dangnab it, you guys have it so easy...oh great. I wish I had known that earlier..mom, I can't wait until christmas I want to know what it is!! I should have been working on Julius Caesar not playing on here and edocsil. But it's so fun and it makes me happy. Especially my sweet shade...and not much makes me happy these days anyway...*

*Sam i know how you feel me and my girlfreind just broke up. Life is SO hard! OOhh chirstmas, I can't wait. I hopr i get my new ipod. and the legend of zelda twilght princess. ....I wonder what we are having for thanksgiving dinner. I can't wait to see my aunt becky. She is So awsome. Oh, and the SEC champiship is coming up. I hope we do good.*

*hmm well I guess this is why I don't date. There's no real point of having a gf until your at least 16 anyways. All it will lead to is heartbreak, depression, and hours spent that you'll never get back. Sure, there's probably some fun in it, but it's just instant gratification that won't last. There are wiser uses of my time, and life on Earth is so short...*

*How old are you anyway, Andrew? And I was over it two days after cause I know that it is just a REAL waste of time to cry, mope around, and feel depressed about it. So, I do my best to get over the break up and move on in my life.

*yeah i wonder how old andrew is too. and case, you forgot to put a * at the end*

*I agree with Case*

*I wonder how old they think I am... guess!*

*13*

*Hmm I don't think physical age matter as much as mental age. You can be 16 and still not take relationships seriously. I didn't get dumped, or break up with anyone, it's hard to explain...*

i like the way you put that......but its true yuor right

somebody can be physically 15 but be mature enough to handle stuff that most adults cant

its all a matter of perspective

**yeah well put*

*Thank you...*

why your welcome......it was my pleasure

*wow, no one has been here for a while. I wish I was ara, it feels wrong not being a mod. I really did take it for granted, hopefully matt can help....I love this song, but why does it have to hurt so much? Why do I have to be alone? Love is all I really want. I just want someone to love me and hold me and tell me I'm pretty in a way that will make me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside, is that so hard? I have to love them back though. Maybe my standarda are too high...SAM YOU'RE 14. Really, you expect to find your soulmate now? But then, it will make me happy and I won't be sad anymore. Sam, you'll still be sad face it. Parents, friends, school; it's all too much. Why do I even bother? Why don't I just end it all? Because you made a promise remember?! To so many people...remember when you walked home and went missing? Everyone was so freaked out...imagine if you died. They would be so lost without you. But then why does everyone like me so much anyways? I'm not that smart or pretty. I'm just fat and have a crappy sense of humor...but that's not true don't let people let you think that way! But Andy and Christian said I was ugly...well, why are you listening to them?! They are the type of guys that aren't worth your time. You need someone like Edward...or tyler. No not tyler!! You're going to be living him anyway, stop thinking about him!! But he's so beautiful, and things look better..STOP STOP STOP!! You're getting your hopes up, he doesn't like you!! But...maybe if I get over him I can find someone at the public school. Oh ya, that sounds good, go get yourself a public boy. With the way you dress, you're jsut going to attract other emos...but is that such a bad thing? But dating is supposed to be looking for your soulmate, not some 'hot' guy you're compatible with...UGH!! Life is too complicated!!! Wow. I wrote a lot. Perhaps I should put more effort into finding my diary, since people will be reading this....*

*Note that if I sound real contradictory, it's the voices in my head >.<